I wish he’d just be a dick, but he’s still so damn lovely that it's a reminder of how badly I fucked up.

You two were in a rough spot after Harper, you had post-partem, he didn't understand how to deal with that, you were lonely and you made a big mistake, Luna. We all make mistakes.

A part of me wants to fix it, but another part wonders if it's better this way.

You two have been killing the whole co-parenting thing, I won't deny that. Let's weigh out the pros and cons, maybe it'll help decide which part to listen to?

Pros: He’s been a good husband, and he’s an even better daddy. He’s also really loving and sweet… and good bed. :see:

Cons: I cheated. I broke the trust, and I don’t want to fight to get it back even though I know I should.

Cute, cute, cuter, hell yeah girl!

Why don't you want to fight for it though? All those pros outweigh the cons in my opinion.

Because what if I make an effort just to let him down again? I don't want to keep hurting him.

Fine. So tell me this, when you think about your future, Harper's wedding day, let's say: Do you picture yourself and Noah there with separate partners? Or do you picture yourself by his side? Is he the one you can see yourself growing old and gross with and still loving him anyway?

I’m still in love with him. Whenever I think of our future, I still see us married.

Then you need to fight for your man! And stop worrying about hurting him again and worry about figuring out how you're going to make sure that you get that future you want.